When I decided to write a blog a few years ago, all I wanted to write about was my journey to the Tough Mudder. When I completed that, I decided to create a new blog to write about whatever I wanted.
With my blog, I don’t want to be scared to talk about what ever is on my mind with no apologies. I just want to write about what is in my head and share it with whom ever reads it. I make no apologies for what I write because what I write comes from me.
As some of you have read, I have been very busy. I’m trying my best to be the best husband I can be (which I do not feel I am doing a very good job), be the kind of Dad that is not too busy for my son and be around and have fun with him, teach my students, coach my football players (thankfully football season is over), complete grad school (just 2 more weeks), and anything else that comes on my plate.
I AM JUST PLAIN TIRED!
I would like to just sleep and rest but I really don’t know how. Even when I am sick (except with the flu, which i am on the verge of my death-bed), I can’t just sit still and do nothing. I feel like it is almost impossible because I can’t shut my brain off to relax and not think (damn my ADHD).
With all of this going on, it has truly effected me though, and in not alway the positive way. One positive is that I am never bored, something is always going on. But mainly it has effected my passion! I am a very passionate person who attempts to give 100+% in all that I do, but I am having a hard time doing this and in no other place is this more evident than in my marriage.
I love my wife more than I can even say, I have loved her since I met her. But as the years have gone on, I have not given her the attention that I once did and it is no ones fault than my own. I can tell her everyday that my love for her has not changed, but I no longer show her. I make all of these plans of things I would like to do for her, but I let my schedule and exhaustion interfere with showing my wife my true feelings for her. (Guys, never stop making them feel like a princess). I used to show my wife how much I loved her and what she meant to me, but I let life and myself get in the way. The sad thing is that I want to change it but I really don’t know how to.
I know that through my exhaustion and life, I need to make sure that not only do I push through, but I overcome the obstacles to reach those that mean the most to me. Being tired cannot be an excuse to why put thing off to tomorrow because when will tomorrow become today?
Life is hard and it will wear you down, but you must keep moving forward or life will run you over. I may be tired and barely have enough energy to move throughout the day, but I chose to keep moving forward towards my goals and love ones.
No matter what your struggle is, never stop fighting because the reward will have been worth the fight.
Until next time….